someone said something which i found extremely true...
"its funny how someone can break your heart, and you can still love them with all the little pieces.."
That moment will be the moment i treasure for life cos it may nv happen ever again. Given my weird capability of talking non stop.... i was caught speechless and may nv be speechless and on the brink of tears ever again. That soft and sweet moment, the words that were spoken. so many things i wanted to say, but id rather sink that moment in my brain rather than talk it away... and though the things i wanted to say would never be spoken, well, at least ive got a last sweet memory... so i better remember it. hahahaa!
anyways!Bday pics!!!
and OUTING to Sentosa pics are up!!!!
Captain Long: YOU DESERVE the best advisor award!!! YAY! you have ZERO temper. ZERO. and like an unlimited amount of patience, and lots of love! God bless! BE the BEST in NS! i rhymed!
Happy birthday to US! yay! New York New York was so good! :D
Guys, the surprise was just awesome! i LOVED the candles, and the view was perfect! u guys really got me this time. or ok.. u guys get me EVERYTIME. LOVE LOVE LOVE!
To Liz: pegasus is so pretty!!! my little pony!!!
Chris: thanks for coming though u had to go back at 5 AM. WOAH. hahaa!
Huanxin: u ARE really a special guest!!! thanks so much!!!!! and i could literally see your effort. thanks!
To Calvin: the flowers are soooo sweet!!!!
And guess what my beloved ones got me, a machine to grab stuff!!!! er, u know, those u find in arcades.... anyways its real fun and cool and exciting and everything thats good. HAHAHA! LOVE IT! it even has music to get u all excited... hahahaha!
The presence of you people make everything LOVELY!
Grace: its really ok... u and liz fulfilled my dream of having my besties stay the night with me. yay!
Joo: u know me SO well... HAHAHAA! awwww...
johnny: lovely musical msg..
Jas: Your TACO.. WORLD CLASS.
You people are the very reason why my world is beautiful. Your love indeed transcends space and time. hahahah!
i can never thank God enough for all of you.
acutally i see no link between this and our topic of "generous men", but aiya... the song's so sweet!
-I Remember-
Do you ever wonder where
We would be if we had tried
A little harder
It seems like yesterday
That we were making plans
For the future
But it's been so long
Since I have known the truth
These dreams we've left abandon
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
We swore that we would never end
And that our love transcended space and time
These memories slip away
The ghost of what we were
Is fading
But there is no more pain
Which is funny 'cause that night
I was dying
I was dying
Now I don't even recognize
The girl I swore that someday
I would marry
But I can't forget her face
And I can't forget her kisses
Sweet kisses
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
Or how we swore that we would never be alone
God I remember so much
-Stabbing Westward-
Its so weird how Stabbing Westward which looks sooo goth, can come up with such sweet lyrics.. really, dont judge a book by its cover...i mean, their band name alone is STABBING Westward, but look what flows out of their song!
haha. joe, i REALLY do like the song. :D
And hurry hurry have our cookie session!!!
meet the lovely family.... :)
Then meet the love birds, whose love surpasses any boundary. :D and check out our family made oyster tower... where er.. the oysters sit at the throne. oh well...
Mommy and me!~ mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy and oyster tower.
And i finally went to the BEACH!!! yay east coast and roller blading!! and the best of all... stacy and coco went along!! triple yay!
The extremely special and beautiful and breathtaking rainbow which CIRCLED ROUND THE SUN... i mean... it CIRCLED ROUND THE SUN LAH.a FULL circle.... rainbow. anyways.. hahaah it was nice lah.
To jas, grace and calvin. It was loads of fun!!!
and to joo.. we'll blade together again soon!!!
God is good.. ALL the time! :):):)
I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe
I pray we'll find your light
And hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night
Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe.
We ask that life be kind
And watch us from above
We hope each soul will find
Another soul to love
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
Ognuno trovi amore, Intorno e dentro a se....
For Hong Kong... click... Hong Kong
For EMERGE.. click... EMERGE
zoo pics are in flickr!
:D
Excited are the people, to go to the zoo....
Oh lovely day....
Then er.... the picture explains itself.
Then fuzzy wuzzy stuffy.
All thanks to these two BEAUTIFUL PPL!
The surprise was awesome guys... and i love today soooo much! After the zoo we went to watch nacho libre which was surprisingly enjoyable too....
all in all, i really enjoyed today! all the laughter and animals and weird zoo keeper guy. i'll always and forever remember this sweet day u ppl brought to me....
more pics will come!!!
You both make the world a much better and beautiful place. :)
*its the start of something new...
it feels so right! to be here with you...*
Daddy's bringing us to the ZOO tmr, AND WE CAN STAY ALL DAY!
we're going to the zoo zoo zoo, HOW ABOUT YOU YOU YOU?
u can come too too too.. WE'RE GOING TO THE ZOO ZOO ZOO!!!!!"
(i miss my kids)
okay, this is a song.... sooooo, my daddy will never in this lifetime bring me to the zoo again, thats definate, but im going with the lovely JOO!
HOORAY CHEERS CLAPS SCREAMS!!!
the good ol' sun, smell of er.... hmmm, not say very pleasant odours and....CHUNKY MONKEY.... here we come.
Love is beautiful, love is sweet.
Love's like a rush, a yearning to meet.
Love is blissful, love is fun
Love makes hearts warm, when there's no sun!
But what follows this love in the sun
Is a line of differences, just waiting to jump
And what happens when differences show
Pain awaits in darkness... HELL-O
Unconditional love is a lil different
And here on I start
To make known a phenomenon
That's known by none
Who accepts the bad and the ugly?
Who accepts the weird?
Who accepts the challenges
That follows after years?
Who accepts the dirt
That comes with every heart?
Which pops its nasty head out
After the first few months.
Who is willing to set their hearts aside?
To clench their teeth and hold on tight
To a love that was shared, at first sight
And to see unconditional love
Come to light.
I somehow wish this were true
So that unrequited love will not come true.
Love me tender, love me sweet
Love me with no conditions
Love me deep.
i wanna learn how to love unconditionally, to set aside differences big or small, now that i know its humanly possible. and i pray so badly, that yes i may not be the most lovable human being on this planet earth, but i do hope that through someone's unconditional love, and sacrifice, it will help me and motivate me and to give me a hope in life, to be, a better person for the one i love and vice versa.
And from Pst's Dad : "Your mom is the only woman i wanna love, and will always love."
Love doesnt need requirements or standards. Of course other than sharing a common vision, differences are bound to appear, and i pray the unconditional love that Jesus shows me, will show in me and through me and of course will be shown to me by a special someone one day.
Love is in the air. :)!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
i wish you well sweetheart! and hurry back pls... and i pray that all the happiness in the world will fall upon you, cos u deserve it!
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oh i miss my young mr hong kong....
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The lil ones that made KL seem the most beautiful place on earth...
meet the cousins! who er... were TAKEN by surprise and unprepared, due to the captivating TV programme...
oh and meet princess in pink and her sweet canine friend.... OLI and SIDNEY!
i love my cousins. awww...
Rising 'til it lifts us up So everyone can see...
We're SOARING, FLYIN!!!
there's not a star in heaven that we cant reach
IF WE"RE TRYIN!
we're breaking free!
RUNNIN! CLIMBIN!
To get to that place to be all that we can be!
Nows the time!
so we're breakin free...
More than hope, More than faith
This is truth This is fate
And together, We see it comin'
More than you, More than me
Not a want, but a need
Both of us breakin' free!
I love this song... my cousin was singing this song in KL and its super sweet! im shouting, singing this song everyday!!! COS IM SOARING! FLYING!!!
Basking in Your love.
me: who's there?
lil cousin: door
me: door who?
lil coz: door that has big butt fly to the planet big butt! HAHAHAHA
(it doesnt make sense, but i love her still)
game:black magic
lil coz: lets play magic dark! oh, dark magic!
me: ok. tell me what u see and pam jie jie will guess.
lil coz: ABC
me: but thats not in the car and it's not an object.
lil coz: its in the car, once we all sing the ABC song!
ok... i mean, how not to love kids... how NOT TO?
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"to err, is human
to forgive, is divine"
Its definate that im going through major trails here... but thank God im still cheerful and still loving!!! the sentence above has been appearing to me for DUNNO HOW MANY GAZILLION TIMES. apparently its a sign. indeed to forgive IS divine, cos God is the expert at it. Thus if we think about it, how many of us CAN forgive and forget, seriously, not many. i know ELISE TEO is another expert at this. hahaha!
Elise, ppl may think u are one kind of a bad girl, but, no one can forgive like you do. and its DIVINE. :) ppl might have as CLEAN SKINS as they want, but their hearts are so stained, that not in their lifetime that they'd learn to forgive... right? love yah...
1 John 4:20 If someone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen, how can he love God whom he has not seen?
i MAY be away from the house of God, but pls, the bible is transportable and God is IN ME and the devil is stupid... anyway main point...
some ppl are like pharisees, they say they LOVE GOD and read the bible and worship him, but its all so superficial and their hearts are so unloving, esp towards their brethren, or say, the children of israel.. now, isnt that being a liar according to the word of God. and i definately dont wanna be like a pharisees...eeeeee... hahah... but then again, who wants to?!
im learning to love like never before, to get slapped on one cheek and turn the other side to get slapped again, if im slapped 1 time, i forgive 1 time, if im slapped 7 times, i forgive 7 times, if im slapped 700 times, i forgive 700 times. and God, increase my faith. (if u know the bible well, this is somewhere inside, go figure.)
Lex, u are one person that gets slapped one too many times, and yet u forgive like its nothing, well ITS NOT NOTHING, cos it takes alot to put aside slander and love one another. which lex, u do me proud. :) and God's smiling too.
my main reason for this whole part is that there are too many beautiful things in life to be bothered about stuffs like this, cos hatred is a heart wrentcher and it kills a person's soul, to bear too much hatred and try to think u can get along fine in life and feel good about yourself for disliking someone else, is so... not possible unless of course u have no soul.. so let go and let God! Reconciliation was Jesus's main aim, now what makes man think he can do otherwise. and to do so, even if its not your fault, GO SAY SORRY! and then will your offerings be accepted!
-Mat 5:23-24- this is the toughest... hahaha! but if Jesus can do it, so can we!
Officially my classes are on WED, SATURDAY AND SUNDAY.. there goes my weekends.. which is really going to burn my energy as it clashes with EVERYTHING FROM BIBLE STUDY TO SERVICES. thus.. devil u can test me all u want by making EVERYTHING CLASH TOGETHER IN A PILE OF BUSY HEAP, but even if i have to CRAWL to the house of God, i WILL.
see, the devil IS TESTING... *GROWLS*... and im trying and scraping through all of this, and as low as i may get to the floor, and as much as ppl may look down on me, step on me, kick me, slap me, slander against me and even when there is no answer when i call to Him, i know i'll make it through, cos all i have to do is trust Him.
tears burn like a flame, of the fire
and were took when it comes from an empty heart
then time stops like the hands of a broken clock,
and everything that lead up your life, is covered in the darkness
well I know I know
I feel your pain
I know I know
when the world is closing in, you're breaking down
you're crying out
when there is no answer when you call
just close your eyes, and know that
this twisted road eventually, is gonna lead you back to Me.
Even if it takes digging out my heart, I'LL LOVE like never before... and the joy of the Lord will be my strength in the process. :)
i had a great time today guys. thanks so much! :)
calvin: thanks for the sweetest thing you've done today. :) and i'll never forget it. *MEOW*
W171(includeds everyone, i mean everyone): I LOVE YOUR LOVE!
Lizzy: sushi was great. and your company was awesome. though it was short, but it meant the world to me. love yah.
grace: I i-i LOVE love-love YOU-you -you.
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Off to KL.
i dont even have time to catch my breath from all the travelling... i was all expecting to RUN TO EXPO with excitment and exhiliration on saturday... now... that running dream has vanished.. and i'll be on a roadtrip to malaysia, truly asia.
And when im back, school starts.
There goes my holidays indeed. speed travelling.
as u know... im someone who cant wait.... so here goes...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
thanks for your sms a few minutes ago.. it was real sweet and i was planning to sms u at midnight lah... Your sms made me feel so loved and cared for, and i really appreciate it.. and back at you... you ( and many others, u guys know who you are) are the real reason why im so happy to be back home!
This bday is going to be a break through for you!! as u serve in childrens church and strive to shine for the Lord in camp, u are certainly gonna make a difference.
Thanks for keeping true to every single word you said to me, every time u prove it with an action. Thanks for being a man of your word, thanks for being someone i can totally trust, and thanks for simply listening and loving me for who i am. Thanks for being my teacher and friend, thanks for respecting me with loving kindness, thanks for being my brother and twin, and thank you for every single "i love you", cos i know u mean it and you're sticking through it, and everytime, its an encouragement from heaven to help me take another step through the fiery furnace of life.
and indeed, God was just showing off when he created you too.
love mel.
(to readers, pls dont misunderstand, we clearly know who we are in Christ and where we are going, do matured reading pls.. the "i love you" meant like "love your neighbours as yourself" that kind of LOVE. if any misinterpretatoin otherwise, then... oh well, ive mentioned it clearly here.)
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Home sweet home tmr!!!
Thanks guys! especially to grace, liz,baoting, alex, joseph, robert, those who smsed me during my trip! who knowingly spent extra money on me.. hahahaa! you guys really made me feel like im still in singapore with all your loving.. and i know truly that u guys do care !!! so thanks so much for your love all the way from singapore!
The very reason why God sends u true friends. and thank God for you guys.
CHECK OUT THE SCENERY!!!! and the beaches, mountains and meet my lovely cousin!!!!
:D
Lovely is the place here.... scenery is breath taking... the oceans, mountains and whatever nature u have here is beautiful!!!The beach is going to be my third home when i get back!!! if i become as tan as an indian i dont care... heh heh...
a gazillion pictures were taken! a few is shown.
meet the sweetest boy in Hong Kong!!! awwwww.. love love love love love.. this boy's a toughie, but i managed to carry him.. HAHAHA. i love kids.
climbing rocks!!!! its not rock climbing.. its climbing rocks.. and its so enjoyable. seriously, why didnt i notice i liked these activities... i think ive found a new love for life.
i LOVE big dogs and i cant deny it!!!! Hong kong has so many huge dogs its unbelievable. rottweiliers, basset hounds, retrievers, collies, even er, i dunno what u call em.. BUT THEIR HUGE.
Resting from mini hiking... who wants to be a back packer??? pls oh pls travel the world with me.
i tried snorkeling for the first time!!! and breathing through a tube is actually more difficult than i expected... but the beauty of the corals is one that is to be respected. i wished i had an underwater camera or something. the corals were so near my feet i didnt dare to do any drastic movements in case i cut myself and bleed and sharks come.. hahahaa! the fishes were adorable as the swam in huge groups just below your belly and i saw a ROCK FISH (i have good sharp eyes!) and SEA URCHINS which were so disgustingly huge but still awesome.
floating above this "other world" takes u away from the harsh and realistic world we live in. and u really dont notice that there might just be a shark behind you cos the sights of the corals are MESMERISING. hahahaa.
After all the mountains, sand and sea, plus my birthday is coming.. God i pray for a spiritual DIVER (heh heh) literally and metaphrically again. oh pretty pls with a cherry on top. someone who'd bring me around the world safetly, and who'd appreciate me and protect me. who'd dive into clear waters of the ocean, and also dive into challenges of life holding the the word of God in his heart. amen and amen.
i know i sound like some 5 year old kid amazed by stuff from excurtions... so mind me, but im still amazed!!! so if i rant on and on about things which may seem very non amusing... bare with me... :D i really wished everyone in the world knew how im feeling at those pretty moments. its really the biggest blessing to be able to see God's created beauty, beauty that's hidden.
Hong Kong gave me a chance to really see God the CREATOR. oh my goodness... though far from the house of God but the word of God is near... indeed if i take the wings of the morning and fly to the deepest, darkest parts of the earth, there His hand shall hold me.. and indeed the grip is still strong!
i really thank God for this trip, its really a chance to throw all your sadness aside and to a place where the serenity and beauty surrounds you.. and youd think, there's much more to life that broken promises, or feeling lousy over someone's bad judgement.
i cant wait to be back home.
Grace, liz: much kisses and loving.
joo: all the sadness in the world will not bring us down. AMEN?!
Da: if u cant swim.. pls no snorkeling. hahaha! eating sushi will be just fine.
Chris: friday's a definate YES!
yisheng: thanks dear for listening! you DA man. :D plus your advice is.. uplifting. haha!
i'll try to up load the trillion and one pictures asap. :) thanks for all the loving from singapore!
For every bruise u gave me
for everytime i sat in tears
for the million ways you've hurt me
i just wanna tell u this
you broke my world,
made me strong, THANK YOU.
