OMGOODNESS!!! my dad said i can go overseas to study!!!!! YAY!!!

but though i havent enrolled and its still not exactly confirmed, the fact that he allows me and will try to pay for me IS A HUGE DEAL ALREADY!!! just that he's unsure of the funds required...

AH!!! ive leaped ten steps ahead!!!

im a HAPPY CHIRPY, BLESSED GIRL.

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But then again, i feel bad... the amount is so much, i feel like im sucking away my parent's finance.. :(

when my dad said yes, i leapped for joy, then slowly reality sank in.. on like, they have to fork out so much on me.. am i being selfish, am i only thinking for myself?

its what i REALLY want, but then.. what about my parents. my mom? my dad?

now ive got to get everything done asap, and everything is all over the place.. so many stuffs i'll need to settle and rush deadlines to enroll on campus by the start of next year.. everythings not confirmed and in a blur, im unsure of how soon things will be, will i be prepared?

ok. now i dunno to be happy or not..

i am leaping for joy in my heart, but yet, i feel like-- do i even deserve this blessing........ its like a toll on my parents...

i guess ive got to look toward my dream, my vision, my God, rather than my circumstance..
Then again, its not only my circumstance, but my parents...

oh lord.
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