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Thursday, January 10, 2008

Long christiany entry.. if not interested, dont read.

My whole purpose of wanting to leave singapore was 50% because of a vision i saw of myself in snow and the canadian flag some 3 years ago, and 50% was to RUN AWAY from things.

i must admit, im a good runner, from things i dont wanna face.. and it works fine with me.. i dont need to FACE MY PROBLEMS because they dont really haunt me anyways. call me a wuss, but at least im good at runnnig away.

And running away from everything, and flying half way across the globe, guess who accompanied me over? someone i never thought would do so.. GOD.

i should really start talking about God again. its been long since ive praised him and i'll praise him now.

i ran away, so to speak, from church because there were issues i didnt want and bother and dont see the need to debate about in my head. bottom line, i love God, if he doesnt love me back, its okay. as long as i love him. Then you christians might come and tell me, if i really love God, why would i leave church? if i SINCERELY LOVE HIM.. WHY??

answer is, i dunno.. hahaha.. pathetic right. i have my own belief system in me and my relationship with God can. He was my best friend since i was 5. so cut me some slack, heh. i really cant say my love for God is like INTENSE AND ALL EMOTIONAL. its more of lighthearted joking and talking about random stuff. if u know me, you'd probably guessed it was something like that anyway.

people say, we'd run to God when bad things happen. well.. im running to him now because I FEEL SO BLESSED TO THE POINT I DONT BELIEVE HE IS NOT WITH ME. because he is!! God doesnt like to leave me, and everyone else as well, even if u are as whimpy as me, God always sticks around hoping to find a way to lift you up!

God has overdone it this time. my heart feels so happy, its growing so big it would float away.

id never be able to do this without YOU! okay i give SOME credit to myself, but even im not believing what i see.

:)

Adieu 11:22 AM***

HEY-YA

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Than when you stoop down
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